Sunshine
A couple of weeks ago, we finally got in to see a child psychologist. She prescribed Zoloft for Sawyer, and it is working wonderfully for him!
Sawyer often tells me he feels like a failure, or that he feels like he’s stupid. He has told me multiple times now that he doesn’t know why he’s even alive. I tell him “God doesn’t make mistakes, and He made you because He thought the world needed one of you.” What I don’t tell Sawyer is that I feel like a failure because I can’t just magically make him feel better.
To all those parents out there struggling to keep going and keep being everyone’s cheerleader while you, yourself, are struggling- I see you.
Sawyer may be outgrowing my lap, but in my heart he will always be my baby boy.
Today Sawyer starts his first day of middle school. Most people would probably think “Man, that kid is excited for school to start!” What they don’t know is that he wasn’t excited- he was overly prepared because he was a ball of nerves- worrying about being bullied, getting lost, or the work being too hard.
Being a parent is hard, and watching your child struggle is even harder, but I’m happy to see the happy glow radiating from my baby girl’s smile these days!